Set Fire to the Rain

My Mom has always been my silent supporter.  5 years ago, when I was diagnosed with Brain cancer, she was there for me every single day.  Literally  accompanying me to daily treatments and doctors appointments and spending time with me everyday after she heard the news.  She was the live in Mom that provided normalcy during a trying time of uncertainty.

She is the one who is always there, always caring for everyone else… she is the one who doesn’t believe in the word impossible… she is the one who believed in me to set fire to the rain in my toughest time…  just as I believed in her during her recent health scare.  It was nice to be the one to provide support for her this time.

She is the first girl I ever loved, she taught me right from wrong, how to act everyday in a gentleman’s manner by holding doors and always saying please and thank you.  She has always inspired me to be better than my best.

An untested love may be taken for granted over time.  It’s in the times we need it most that remind us how lucky we are… and for me, how truly lucky I am to have her in my life.

I am so proud of you Mom, for your strength, your courage and now more than ever… your perseverance.

I Love You,


Dear John…

We’ve said it before in previous blog posts, but it really is amazing when you realize how many people this disease is actually affecting.  Last month, we learned that the Red Sox Manager, John Farrell has been diagnosed with a type of blood cancer called lymphoma and will be away from the team as he completes his treatments.

As a cancer survivor, and of course a long time Red Sox fan, I am sharing with you, what I shared with him, hoping that the letter actually reaches Mr. Farrell.

Here is what I sent…

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A Tough Pill To Swallow

I was cleaning up a few things recently and came across something that immediately brought back a lot of memories.


A few short years ago, this was my life.  Pill bottle after pill bottle, day after day in order to help save my life.  I still remember taking the Temodar and almost instantly feeling sick to my stomach.  I had anti-seizure medication, narcotics for the pain after surgery and pills to help me sleep. I even had pills to help settle my stomach from all the pills I was taking.

The pills were bad, but the blood thinner may have been the worst.  It was a shot that I had to give myself everyday in the stomach, alternating sides as the scar tissue built up and made it hard to puncture the skin without resistance and a strong burning sensation.

This was my life for more than a year… a year that taught me a lot about myself and has made me a better person.

In the end, every pill and needle did its job… and it was worth every poke and tough pill to swallow.



*NEW* Cancer Canknot Shirts To Support Cancer Research

PO5195846-frontblackThank you to all of you who have made the books and the jewelry  successful in just a few short months. We are excited to announce that we’ve designed and created another way to help support cancer research.  We have started a Cancer Canknot T-Shirt Booster campaign where 100% of the profits will be donated to support cancer research.  We have loved to see so many  necklaces and bracelets out there with the knotted ribbon and want to thank you for helping us spread the word.

We feel the T-Shirts campaign can now do the same and can reach an even broader base.

In purchasing a shirt, you are showing your support not only for our family but for that family member or friend that has been affected in your life.

Wear this shirt to support your Mother or Father, your Grandmother or Grandfather. Wear this shirt for your Son or Daughter or your Brother or Sister.  Wear this shirt for your Aunt, your Uncle, your Nephew or Niece. Wear this shirt for Yourself.

Whether they are still fighting, are in remission, or have unfortunately passed on, wear this shirt with pride and as a symbol of support for your loved ones that have been affected.

At the end of the day, Cancer CANKNOT takeaway our LOVE, our HOPE or our MEMORIES.

I am a proud to wear the logo on my chest for myself as a survivor and for all of the people who have supported me over the last three years. When you see me wearing my shirt, please take it as a personal “Thank You” for all of your support.

I would personally love to see all of those who have supported me and those who are supporting others through the difficult process wearing the shirts proudly too.  Most of all, I would love to see other SURVIVORs and their own support groups wearing the logo and proving another one of the many things Cancer Canknot do.

The campaign runs through FEBRUARY 1st. I encourage everyone to visit the site at the following link and purchase your shirt directly through our booster. 

We have set a goal of selling 50 shirts by the end of the campaign and I sincerely feel that we can accomplish and even exceed this target. The best part about the campaign is that 100% of EVERY DOLLAR OF PROFIT WILL BE GOING TO FUND CANCER RESEARCH.

Thanks again for all of the support and wear your shirt proudly knowing that you supported the cause!

Lessons Learned

Through my diagnosis, we have learned many lessons First and foremost we learned the importance of family and friends. Many people ask how we got through such a difficult time, and our response has always been our amazing support system. People helped in any way they could; gift baskets, homemade meals, cards, and many positive thoughts and prayers.

IMG_4739However, I think one of the most amazing things we  learned during this process is the resiliencies that a child possess in the diagnosis of a family member’s cancer diagnosis. As many of you know, Bryce was three years old at the time of my diagnosis. Just as we described in our reasoning for writing the book, one of the first thoughts that crosses your mind is how are we going to tell him? At first, we thought that maybe we don’t say anything at all, but we quickly learned that a child is very perceptive. They soon realize that something doesn’t seem quite right; Why is  daddy tired?, where did all of his hair go?, why do we go to the hospital so much now?

When we told Bryce of daddy’s cancer, we expected many questions – which we got, inspired through the book, but what we weren’t expecting was how resilient Bryce was after he learned about my cancer diagnosis.

Bryce understood so much more than we expected, and even after such a heavy-hearted conversation, he continued to be the amazing boy we always knew. Bryce was able to move past the word “cancer” that we were so afraid to tell him.

Through my  treatment, it was like he “just knew.” He just knew when daddy was tired and couldn’t play as much. And then on the days that I was feeling well, he would ask to wrestle on the floor and sing and dance before bedtime.

We get asked a lot by families on how they should tell their children of a family member’s diagnosis. We always that tell them that they know their  family best and what they are capable of understanding given the situation they are faced with,  but as we shared in our experience, you may be amazed with their resilience.